Two cheers to change

Seeing as my last post was unbelievably dark, dear 5 readers on the interweb I am fine. I didn't send that message to the boy it concerned. I sent him a 4 line good bye and good luck message whilst flying over Iceland on my way back to the states. I am no longer in touch with him.

Since then the younger American guy and I have clarified things... Read, I want a relationship and he doesn't have the energy for one at the moment so we will remain friends.

Sometimes I fear that I may be too severe in my ending of these dalliances but then it's because I don't have the heart to lie to myself. I'm not old, I'm 30 and in good health and I love my family and my job. Anyone who isn't adding to that doesn't deserve me.

Quick heads up ... Mr Epic might be coming to visit me next weekend. I have done my very best NOT to seem too excited by it and at the same time not to be repulsed by it. In my minds eye this is his last chance... This will determine really if I will be permanently deleting his number or not.

Can I get two cheers for change?