I haven't written in a while because my relationship has been a mess to put it mildly. Had to delete an earlier post cos if by some miracle this relationship works out, I don't think he would forgive me for what I said. That aside, I miss the first four weeks of our togetherness. I miss the excitement in his voice when he heard mine. I miss the genuine concern about wanting to know how I felt no matter how stupid it was. Girls and boys are drastically different. I challenge any boy that says he loves a girl who won't run into the issue of his girl not feeling loved anymore.
I am reading the marriage book by the Lees. I asked the young man to buy himself a copy so we would do it together and be told me in essence that it was a waste of money for us to own two copies SMH!. Ps. He is the one who has been pushing for a quick marriage. I feel we are just not ready for it. The biggish issue being at the moment we are just not communicating effectively. He feels like I have given up on the relationship , and to be honest I have called it quits twice in recent weeks. And I feel like he isn't taking anything I say seriously. I don't feel like he loves me. Surely if he did he wouldn't talk to me in an underhanded fashion? I am being more patient with him than I have been with any single soul I have not been related to. I just hope I am not wasting my time ... Cos if he says another offhanded comment, I don't know what I'll do. And I don't care if I've met his parents or not... I won't be in a doomed marriage. Heaven forbid.
